Change your life in ten minutes!

The deed is done. Saw the dean this morning and he's going to arrange a leave of absence so I can go back to uni later if I change my mind. It took 10 minutes and one signature. When I think of all the hassle a UCAS form and visiting days etc takes it seems ridiculous.

Changes

Ben is fantastic and great and I love him and he has a huge ego and should be very pleased that he's the first thing I talked about in my blog today. *mwah*

*cough*

Anyway... sorry for not blogging for so long. I've decided to quit university. It seems kinda pathetic that I can't even stick it out for a year, but way back in year 13 when I was applying and every stage since then I've had serious doubts about the whole uni thing. I've really struggled to stay motivated (and failed miserably) and i don't see the point in wasting money being here when it's not what I want to do. It's great to learn things but I don't enjoy learning under pressure and never have done. I've got a meeting with the Pro-Dean for Arts tomorrow (how scary does that sound?) and hopefully it can all be wrapped up then, and I'll be home on Monday. It seems really hurried, but it's an ideal place to stop as the semester finishes after my last exam on Saturday morning, and it's something I've thought about for a good two years. It seems silly to start another semester when I've made up my mind.

I'm not sure what comes next... maybe back to my gap year job for a bit (waitressing in a hotel). I miss that... which kinda makes me feel like an uneducated idiot. But never mind, I enjoy doing it and that's what matters. Maybe I'll do some kind of evening or correspondance course because I don't want to quit education completely.

Quagmire

"The acquisition of academic knowledge (the 'pride of life') is a wearing process and I wonder now if it is all worthwhile. The shiny paint laid on by curiosity's hand has worn off. What thing better can a man know than the love of Christ, which passes knowledge? Oh to be reveling in the knowledge of Him, rather than wallowing in the quagmire of inscrutable philosophy! My philosophy prof says I can't expect to learn much in his class---all he wants to do is to develop an inquiring mind in order to 'make explicit and critically examine philosophical problems of the widest generality'. Ho hum." - Jim Elliot

Holidays

You can probably guess by the ending that last post wasn't me... go Ben! Cool prayer, thanks.

I've got so much to write about the holidays but I don't know where to begin so it'll be a brief overview. Most important thing was becoming Ben's "bird" (I think I'm gonna have to get used to being called that grr!). It's been a whirlwind two weeks at home. Spent lots of time with Ben which was cooler than cool, and met lots of new people through him. Visited Dad who is now living with his girlfriend, it's kinda strange there being an important person in Dad's life after it just being him for years. And wanted to do so much more but couldn't fit it in. Travelled back to Scotland today which broke my heart, but it's fine, I've got revision and exams to keep me busy and I'll be back in Norwich at the end of January. It can't come fast enough...